To all of u who din know, m birthday is today...feel so sad, no one except some actually remembers... guess that is how unimportant i am...i guess this isnt really a birthday more like a manufactured date: Nicholas Goh Chung Min: Manufactured date: 30th April 1992, Expiry date:?? ???? ????.
Well guess the expiry date wont be long...feel like killing myself so many times, its bad...
Enough EMO talk, i feel so sian and stressed i went back to maple!!! now lvl 20sin in like 5 days? lol
Also got prelim sia...so coolhaha

I hate this world and its creator, ihate everything. Dont worry Kevin, i am being emo again, but i wont act or you will call me attention seeking again. Well, i listened to a sermon this morning and believe this, God did tell me something alright and what he told me is I am a freaking biased God and i love to pick on people like you, Nicholas.
This is enlightened me. It is said in the bible that everyone is gifted with a special gift or talent and how we use it is what gives us success and draw people closer to God. Well, the Biased One up there gave me nothing. I suck at first aid, i suck at drills, i am not creative, i cant sing, i cant play music, i cant draw, i got no chrisma,i got no good physical appearance, i cant run even though i tried to everyday, girls avoid me, i cant fight, i got short fingers, i suck at IT,
i am short and many more
my studies suck, people treat me like a dog and many more. This give me feeling of hatred all over my head. I have enough of this world.i hate everything now...becos i suck at everything, u name it,i suck at it...that is a fact, there is no balance, I am the chosen one...the one who gets no gifts...

Thank you Ivan for bringing me to your church, its quite fun, I am sure marcus enjoyed it too, thank you=) even though now i have turned back to christ, i still want to remain the death knight, i love being like Arthas!!! he is so cool, sits on a horse that is make out of bones and holds this Giant sword with inscriptions on it!! and his long white hair so cool!!!
had a nice game of dota today and my cousin sucks at loa...totally!! shit!! I cannot take it, the sight of him playing makes me wanna leave straight...he only shields himself, added death coil at lvl 17 and den say its a totally useless skill, fuck u Zach, how many times do i need to tell you!! LoA is a freaking support tank!!! dont buy MoM for him like that guide shows you...Borrowed time + MoM combo has lots of loopholes!!! give up on you le, don want teach u liao...

Yesterday, i cleaned up store and found this giant mass of rotten shit in the box...omg, its total shit man...fuck... i threw it out, the flies in store all followed it, i spray insecticide like mad cock. sorry frens for the disgusting smell... ZZZ the rotten shit is from the comp training camp one lors...zzz the officers like a bit too much leh...go put the apple at the bottom of the pots and pans, den all squashed up den all rotten, yuck!!! I get fed up i send email to all officers lol, fellow NCOs i think u all got the email right, i think i too rude, some officers scold me liao haha...den i apologise den Aiden sir said i got a lot of passion!! lol well, this shows that i must not slack, i must chiong, maybe i will get my staff sergeant rank!! yay!!
Anyways, Sorry to all of you my fellow NCOs, esspecially Kevin, for me being very emo this few days, becos of this dispute being solved, i will not be emo liao...But PLEASE DO NOT PLAY CARDS, PSP IN STORE OR I WILL KILL YOU!!!

Today scored about 6 marks for Amath test...ok, its reverse time...i shall concentrate on Os now, one game of dota per day, whether lose or win i dont care, i must maintain my skill lvl of using LoA...I gonna be a professional gamer one day...
For some reason, Suresh did not tell DK abt me and my friends going late to serrangoon stadium...Marcus becoming very scared abt the incident, well, poor emo kia...what is there to scared?? the most ICAN only ma...haiz Suresh threaten until like that...poor dude
However, i feel extremely happy today!! Melvin Low, a guy from Hongyi's class says i am the most pro among those who went to play lan yesterday!! Have my LoA usage gone to the next lvl??? I donno, i just ZZZ PWNZ ZZZZ HAHAHAHHAHA
However, i still feel hatred, but not as much, i don hate my parents anymore, they worked so hard just for me, i shall not be like those rich bastards spending everything on their electronic devices, now all i need now is only my PC to play Dota and my books to study, no other stuff like PSPs and all that...
For some reason...store rules have been abolished for some reason!! Yahoo!! becos everyone is thinking that if officers come down all of a sudden and the storeman, which is me, is in the store THEY FUCKING DONT GET A SHIT!!! Now, for some nice reason, ppl can eat in store, play poker cards in store and even PSP!! now its like a Gambling Den!! Welcome to SJAB Gambling Den!! yahooo!!!
Well, about the eating part, hehe, i remembering when some chairman ate something in store, the one who did about 80 pumpings at one shot was the storeman!! YAHOO!!! i love it...Also, i heard from Wei Ren that for every store rule broken, the person who break it does 20 push ups and not only that!! if sir sees it, the storeman gets twice the amount the person gets!! hahahahahahahahahahha Yahoo!!! So lets calculate, hmm, First store rule broken: eating in store, punishment, 40 pumpings, store man gets? 80 pumpings!!! YAY!!!
second punishment: Breaking school rules: playing poker cards in public, punishment: 60 pumpings for breaking 2 school rules at once: Storeman gets 120 pumpings!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
3rd punishment: breaking school rules: PSP being brought to store and left there till afternoon, punishment: 40 pumpings and another 80 pumpings to storeman!! so altogether, lets calculate: how much does the store man get: 80+120+80= 280 pumpings!!!! I love it!! my arms will break, brain will faint, for what? i don eat in store, bring and play PSP in store and play cards anymore!! hahaahha...now for those ppl who don understand and think they are used to being treated like a dog, why the shit do i get this extra 280? now u know why am i so pissed off? I hate all of u SJAB...NCO promotion is also about conduct, so the 3 staff sergeants became staff sergeants and play cards in store while the lowly coporal storeman who does not break any store rules does not get to be promoted!! yay!!!well u love it dont u? Me being your little little dog, geting all this shit, while u guys become higher...u follow the concept the dog is forever a dog right? hahaha!!! I find the 2 ppl not out to get me that has higher rank than me are Jerots and Ivan...thank u both esspecially Ivan for comforting me...u are a great guy, i wish to work with u some day

I decided to put this hatred skin to show ny hate and disgust at the people around me, Master Zhi An, if u are reading this blog, thanks for praying for me, because i am sure all my other friends would not do it for me, but i still hate everything...
Ppl say i am short and fat...is it my fucking fault? Cant u ppl see how much weight i lost, i cannot lose anymore weight, no matter how hard i try...those Giant things hanging out from my legs are called muscles, no matter how much i exercise, they wont go off!! U bloody shit damned idiots, stop calling me fat, even if u think i am fat, i can run faster, longer than u bloody ppl...I run everyday...i still look fat.
I have hatred for everything now, no more happy go lucky Nick Goh, its Nicholas the hater...
i hate God who made me exist, i hate my dad who has such lousy genes, i hate myself for being borned, i hate SJAB becos sir treats me like some dog, i hate everything about maris stella, i hate ppl who call me attention seeking becos that is human nature, i hate girls becos they are irritating, i hate my sisters becos they are bloody bitches, i got so many things i hate now i cannot name them all

Today went to play lan with my usual friends, and hongyi and his friends join in, we got a super nice match long time since i supported my team so well, well, i went back to see if napfa test was going on but we went there got a scolding from suresh, fuck la, at least we got balls to come back right? better den those who pon...